I'm totally devastated
David Cooks album isn't exactly a thumbs up. Hey, I Love David Cook! But God? His first album isn't very convincing to me. ): Anyway, so my life right now is basically upside down, yet i'm still trying to hold on the grasps of it. I'm trying really really hard. Don't ask me how did my papers go, i would say i screw up one or two or them, but the rest i hope it'd turn out okay. I used to dread leaving town whenever i think about it, but right now.. i just need to escape. I need some air to breathe, i need anything to keep me off my mind. It's tough, but i'm gonna try. I need a new direction. I spent every night talking to God in the most sentimental way i could even start crying. I believe one day, well.. he'll answer my prayers.
I miss
Justin. Yes, i really really do. But hey, if its not meant to be, it's not meant to be. We can't fight fate right?
I can't say that if i see you in 5 or 10 years down the road that i won't have those stupid butterflies in my stomach and have the urge to run up to you and kiss you. I can't say that i won't talk endlessly about how much i've missed you and how every night i went to sleep i prayed i'd see you again... but i also can't say that i won't have the man of my dreams walking
beside me if i see you... so i'll say this:
What we had was amazing.
I loved you in every way a person could love another.But today.. i have to let you go. For the sake of my future.
