I can never tell whats right and whats wrong anymore.........

Compelled.

What I wanted? I wanted you to fight for me. I wanted you to tell me there was nobody else you could ever be with and that you'd rather be alone than without me.

Hurting.

Out of luck and out of tune.
Half a day and I'm confused.
Love may wash away the bruise,
but I still ain't over you.
'Cause when the walls come crashing in,
when flames come coasting in.
Just remember time again,
I still ain't over you.
-- Augustana

This time you weren't the one wiping my tears, you were the one creating them.

Between this whole month that i didn't blog, Justin and i tried getting back together 2 times. Seriously, whats the point? We'll just go our separate ways at the very end anyway. I'd be left alone shedding tears at night, thinking of you. Honestly, these 2 times of trying to get back together is probably the stupidest thing we have done over the 2 and a half year relationship we've been in. God knows we're not meant to be, we're still young, we have a long road ahead of us, we shouldn't waste anymore time and strength.

Why hurt again and again when you know you'd be hurt in the end? I admit, i'm still not over you. Of course i'm not, i can't just walk away from so much that we've been through together. But it'll take time. I have to let go of so much, and thats not easy.

Our picture is still hanging on the wall in the pretty photo frame you got me for our first anniversary. I'll be taking it down right after i finish this. And hope.....

One day.. just one day, i hope i won't look at it with such pain in me anymore..
Then, i'll hang it up again.

We're still friends, I love you for that. But it just hurts to see you now, so hopefully.. we'll take this as some bittersweet memories once i'm okay again.....\

Happy Christmas and a Happy New Year. (: