No one ever reads this shit anymore

But it's okay. It's the new years. Things have been happening. And Orchard Road has been decorated breathtakingly. I can't help but to want to write something down. Here it is.


Something's been keeping me grounded on your land. The "no trespassing" sign was warning enough but I'm stubborn and I get what I want. But is that you anymore? I don't want to push you away until I'm tired of you, but lately the distance has been taking its toll. We're growing but not together. We're changing but not for the better. This could last. Every inch of heart put into this shattered piece of love can't be glued back together. The affection's nothing but dust now. So let's rebuild. We can love beyond barriers of our own perception. so take every wall down. I'll hold you up if that's what you need. I'll give you space if that's what you need. I'd give you everything if that's what you need. I'd swallow the ocean for you, I'd take everyone out of my life for you. As long as you want me around. I would sob my entire life out. you'll never be mine. really mine. I thought maybe this time would be different, but I don't have the guts to mention a word and you don't feel a thing. so, I am back to where I was a year ago. if this is going to tear me apart let me know now. I can walk away looking better than ever and I can pretend as if you never breathed on my neck, or better yet in my presence. You could be nothing to me. someone's dying to use me and I'd let them. I won't be your rock if you won't be mine. something about you keeps me holding on, I can't grasp it and I'd never come close to comprehending it. but i can handle my own. I can give up and leave, I can lie, I can not give a damn, and I can be as withholding as you've been. I'm not giving you an ultimatum and I never would. I just need to know what you want. I'll give you anything you'll ever want.